Some Lyrics I'll Never Forget

Her eyes are watering

I said we're better off this way
Things change
It's happening everyday
He'll come and take my place and show you things that I just couldn't face
We'll sit and sing a song of what we did wrong
Love Seat - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

You say it's time to get over the pain

I still
I still love her
You say it's time to get over the pain
I still
I still love her
I still love her
Kins And Carrol - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When you go

Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance

Tell Me How To [ Live ] And To Learn How To Say Godbye

I will never fully understand what goes on in that mind of yours. Nor will you mine. For a long time I felt like no one actually knew what it felt like to go through something and come out a different person. A changed person. I never thought that anyone would be able to comprehend what it's like to feel mental pain. Then something happened. When you came along, not only did I realize that things can get better. But I realized that I'm not the only one who hurts in the world. You helped me through alot. You've helped me realize that I can't just shut people out the way I often do. That there are people that will catch me when I fall, and hold me when I cry. People who love me. When you hurt as much as I did, you loose sight of things like love and compassion. I'm not saying that I'm fully ready to let go of what happened. But I am ready to accept the fact that it happened. Life's going to move on. I'm writing this not only to show you where I stand, but also for anybody who has been through trauma in their lives. Whether you know  it or not, it gets better. Trust me, it doesn't seem it now. I've been in that position before. You think you can't get over it ever. That you're trapt. But you aren't. Darkness isn't permanent, just like the night. Eventually the warmth of the morning sun will hit your face. It's the most beautiful feeling you could ever think to experience. It's worth it. And if you can get through the storm, you can make it through anything. You come out stronger and wiser. The war stories you hold are some of the scariest out there. Be proud of yourself to know that, yes, you made it through the high water. Hold your head high, and remember you are a survivor. Remember that you are loved, and you are strong. And you are not alone.

A Story Detailed And Anonymous As I Am

It started with a simple smile. Nothing more, nothing less. If I knew back then what I know now, I would have never smiled back. Fast forward 2 weeks... we were talking on the bleachers. I still remember the things you said to me. If only I had seen the insanity in your eyes. I would have ran. You built me up, told me everything was okay. That you wouldn't let me get hurt again. And then, the venom sunk in. You threw me into your vortex of lies. Of course I crumbled to my knees. But still there you were, insisting it was the right way. I caved in and went along, even though I was spinning down. And somewhere between the lies and the fear, I still had some weird idea that it wasn't really who you were. Fast forward about 2 years give or take, and I know you have something planned. I've dealt with you long enough and gave up fighting a while ago. You were such a terrible normality. But then that night, someone intercepted. A variable changed in the equation... and changed me for life. I'll never know what drove the action, well not fully anyways. But it left you speechless like the way it left me. Now its over a year later, and I'm nowhere near over it. Nor will I ever be. But in time, the pain will dull, and though I won't be over it... I'll learn to live with it. Because of you, I could say I'm stronger. On the other hand, I'm weaker as well. Both of you are the skeletons in my closet... the holes in my story. You are the inconsistency in my alibi. I can't help but sit and wonder what goes on in your head. You showed no remorse. I hate you, and I always will. Hearing your name makes my heart cringe in loathing. But I will never let you bring me down again. I hardly resemble the person I once was. And I'm done with you.

High Anxiety - - - - - x - -

My fists clench up, mimicking the action of my airway. My chest starts to heave. Lungs are burning for air. Heart rate spikes, temperature rises. My head is spinning even though I'm sitting down. As hard as I try, my eyes won't focus. My mind goes crazy as if on fast forward; But the world around me seems so slow. Images flashing across the insides of my eyelids. Just breathe... that's all, just breathe. I tell myself. But it seems the message isn't clear. I'm on the ground, knees collapsed. I feel the floor under me. I try to ground myself. Heart's beating faster, I close my eyes. Trying to calm down. It's like a weight that never lifts, it's the world on your shoulders. The people around you, hundreds of them. It's in your skin and the air you breathe. Electric nerves. 

            a n x i e t y . . .

Faith... It Drives Me -Away- ... But It Turns Me On

I'm gonna sit here in this bed, and unravel the world with my mind. The neurons in my brain are lighting up from electric currents. Breathe in deep... exhale. Seeing the world through a new set of eyes. Every colour more vibrant than the rainbows ever were in my dreams. Guitars hitting chords and sounding like sirens. I close my eyes and bring myself to my own little world. I can feel the sun on my face, I can hear oceans waves. My opposing side filled with dark emotion lays just across the bay. The boatman sits and waits to take me back someday. Of course eventually I'll go back, but not forever. There's no escaping the inevitable. Inhale, exhale... opening my eyes. I'm singing out loud. I'm in the clouds, and don't want to come down. Don't bring me down, not now. I feel you on the tips of my fingers and my nerve endings are screaming. Your soul's like sunbeams. I love you. It fills me up, don't bring me down. Not now at least. Hearts beat as one. For now this moment fills me up. Until, my love, I drop again.

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